Everyone needs a break sometimes, if you haven't realised I disappeared off of YouTube and this blog for a while. That wasn't intentional it just sort of happened but after thinking about it for a while I have decided that I want to take a break - from YouTube.
I don't want to take a break from this blog, although I won't be posting blog posts as frequent as what I was doing, so I'm staying on my blog but don't expect blog posts all the time, I got my first job about a week ago which causes me to be very busy a lot of the time.

As for YouTube, I feel like I need to take a break from it...why? Because I found myself losing motivation for it, I don't look forward to making a video and uploading it anymore, I feel like I have to do it and for that reason it just isn't as fun anymore :/
Do I plan on coming back to YouTube? Yes, hopefully one day I will return to YouTube but when that will be I don't know, I will still be on YouTube watching peoples videos but I won't be making my own for a while. I want to have the motivation to make videos and for some reason I don't have that right now therefore I am taking a break from the platform.

You can still keep up to date with me and talk to me here on my blog and over on my Twitter, I'm not disappearing completely don't worry.

I hope you understand.

Dear 14 year old Megan,

I know it is hard for you right now, you're having a rough year and you're having trouble with your emotions and every panic attack you have you think your going to die but don't worry that isn't the case at all! You will be diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression but it doesn't mean it's going to be bad forever. You will fight your hardest to get through it and you will be successful at it. Sure there are some ignorant people saying things they shouldn't to you whilst your struggling but just ignore them and carry on fighting to feel better. Life does get better, you end up with an amazing boyfriend who you will be with for quite a while, he treats you the way you should be treated, you will hit a few bumps in the road but you will be strong together. You will get work experience as a teaching assistant like you have always wanted, you will really enjoy it and you will work with some very nice people who will be doing their best to help you in any way that they can. You will also land your first job at 19 over Christmas time on the checkouts in a retail store, you haven't started it yet so I can't tell you how it is going to be but it looks like it is going to great and hopefully you will gain confidence from it. 
I know life sucks right now but it isn't all that bad, things do get better just hang in there!

From

19 Year Old You

I couldn't be more ecstatic if I tried...why? Because I got a job! :D
I have been searching for a job for such a long time now and finally I have secured my first ever job...it's a Christmas Temporary job but there is the possibility of it becoming permanent if I'm good! I'm not going to say where I'm going to be working obviously but what I will say is that I will be working on the tills.
I am nervous and excited at the same time...excited because like I said it will be my first job and because I will be earning money which will feel so good to know that it is me earning that money. I'm nervous because again it is my first job so I haven't experienced what its like to work before other than work experience as a teaching assistant but that is a totally different job all together and I'm also nervous because I have no idea what sort of customers I will be serving, the majority will be lovely people but no doubt there will be the odd few that cause problems but to be honest that is expected in a retail job really isn't it? I'm looking forward to the challenge to be honest, I know how to act if I get one of those customers so it should be okay :)

Having a job does mean I will have less time to do YouTube and my blog however I'm not going to stop, I will make it work don't you worry - it will just be less frequent thats all but I will still be here :)