LOST 8.5 LBS

If you know me you know that I have always been a bigger girl but now I am at the point where I am so unhappy with my weight and it could also cause health issues at some time in my life. So I have decided to join slimming world to help me lose weight.


Why did I join Slimming World out of all the different things I could do?

1. I love the plan, its not about cutting things out its about eating a balanced meal and eating things in moderation.

2. I will have the support of the group and the consultant throughout my journey.

3. It works! I have met/talked to so many people that have gone to slimming world and the changes they go through is phenomenal!

I'm only on day 2 of my journey and I have to admit I am kind of struggling a little bit but thats okay, it has made me figure out things about myself. I realised that I'm more of a snacker than a meal eater and because of this on my first day I was so hungry. Why was I hungry? Because I didn't eat enough.
The amazing thing about slimming world is that you can eat so much food and still lose weight but for some reason I didn't eat enough and I suffered for that reason but its okay I've learnt from my mistakes and I'm not going to give up, I'm going to keep going and increase my food intake, especially my speed because that is the thing I ate the least of on day 1.

I plan on blogging often about my journey on slimming world, my target is to lose 3 stone so lets see if I reach that shall we? I hope I do, I know it will take a while but hopefully I will hit that target as long as I stick to the plan property.

Have you ever done slimming world? Tell me about your experience in the comments.

I feel like we go through so many career choices as we grow up, well I did anyway. Some people pick 1 and stick to it but the majority (like me) are constantly changing there mind. I'm on about the choices we make before we even to the stage of getting a job.




When I was really young I wanted to be a teacher, I even used to pretend to be a teacher all the time! I had a whiteboard that I would set tasks for the "class" on (there wasn't actually a class) and I even went as far as doing work in different notebooks, purposely getting some answers wrong and some answers right and then going through and marking them as if I was a teacher! Please bare in mind that I was in Primary School when I did this so I was just playing one of the many role-play games that children like to play but I based the game off of what job I thought I wanted.

The goal of wanting to be a teacher when I grew up stayed for a long time but then when I went to Secondary School it changed, and it changed a lot! I started off as wanting to be a teacher and then I wanted to be an Actress and then it went back to teacher but a Drama teacher this time and then it went onto Chef which looking back on it now makes me laugh because I can not cook! After I wanted to be a Chef I then wanted to be a Sports Teacher and then at the end of Secondary I settled on wanting to become an Actress again. So I studied Performing Arts at college for a year and a couple of months, it was meant to be a 2 year course but a couple months into the second year I decided I would rather act as a hobby than have it as a job so I went looking for something else which is when I figured out I wanted to work in Childcare in a nursery but then I ended up deciding that age group wasn't for me so instead I wanted to be a Special Educational Needs Teacher in a Primary School, a slightly higher age group than a nursery, but then it was such a struggle to get into that because I had no experience, I did some work experience to gain the experience I needed but then I soon decided I wanted to be a Teaching Assistant and I loved that but I wanted to give Customer Service a go since it had always interested me so I stopped wanting to be a Teaching Assistant and ended up getting a part time job in Customer Service which was my first proper job, everything else had just been work experience but this time I was actually employed. I only had my job for 2 weeks because I was hired for the Christmas period only but as it came to the end of my time in that job I was sad because I really enjoyed that job and I didn't enjoy it because of the money, it was great earning money and all but the main things I loved was working with customers and I loved the community of staff I worked with as well so leaving that job was really bittersweet and from then on I had decided that was the job sector for me - Customer Service. Who knew that this shy little girl would end up wanting to work in Customer Service but it really does give you a confidence boost working in that area and I'm no longer shy anymore so not only did I love the job but it also helped me grow as a person.

Unfortunately I don't currently have a job after my last one ended but I am searching for one, in Customer Service of course and hopefully soon I will find one. It took me 19 years to become set on a career path but I feel like so many people go through so many different career choices when there growing up.

Did you keep changing your career choice like I did? If you did what were they and are you set on one now?

I'm excited for my adventures in working in Customer Service more in the future :)

Do you ever get those moments when you go to blog but nothing comes out?
Yeah? well that seems to be me at the moment. I have loved to write ever since I was little, I used to write stories all the time and then one day it just all stopped...maybe its because of my mood changes from suffering from Depression and Anxiety? I honestly don't know. Last year I started this blog because I finally got the inspiration to write again but instead of wanting to write stories I wanted to write short posts on here so thats exactly what I did and I loved it but now the inspiration has gone, I just woke up one day and it had gone. The thing is though I really want to blog, I don't want to stop doing it, I took a break for a couple of weeks to see if my inspiration would come back but nothing did. I'm writing this today to try and get myself back into it again, it may not be the best post I have ever written, it may not make much sense and it may be short but its the first step of me getting my inspiration back  and being able to blog again because I truly do love blogging. I love everything about it, the community, the fact that I can write what ever I want to, the fact that I have a small chance of making a different to someones life etc and I hope to be writing new posts again soon. 
I have some posts that have been written months ago but not published and I still do love those posts so I will publish them about once a week, maybe twice and I'm hoping by publishing and reading through those old posts that it inspires me to write more, I mean hey I wrote this post didn't I? Thats something at least :)

If you know me you know that over the past couple of years I fell into unhealthy habits, this happened right around the time I was diagnosed with Anxiety because all I wanted to do was to stay in bed, sleep all day and eat a load of crap (excuse my language). In 2016 I finally got control over my anxiety and I'm doing much better in that department of my life but I still struggle with some unhealthy habits daily. I have found that these unhealthy habits are starting to affect my mood and the way I feel physically so this year I have decided to work on those things and become a healthier version of my self.

My word of the year is: Healthy
I have seen so many people chose a word of the year for themselves, a word that they want to focus on for that year so I thought I would give it a try. Therefore my word of the year is the word Healthy because as I stated above  my health and getting it back on track is going to be my focus for this year.

How Do I Plan On Doing This?

1. Getting Up Earlier

For months now I have struggled to get up early, the only times I ever did was when I went to work but I only had to get up early 2 days a week for work and all the other days I would just sleep in. I would naturally wake up around 9ish which I think is a good time to wake up but then I would always turn over and go back to sleep and then I wouldn't wake up until 1pm, thats half the day gone! I actually felt horrible physically for sleeping this long believe it or not and I had no motivation what so ever when I would wake up at this time. My goal is to get up before 10am everyday. It's going to be a struggle, and there may be a few days where I might need to sleep longer than that but for the most part I want to get up before 10am.

2. Drink More Water 

I used to drink so much water, it was literally all I drink but now I find myself drinking a lot more fizzy drinks so I want to stop drinking so many of them, the odd one here and there is fine but the amount I am drinking currently is not okay and I need to start focusing on drinking more water again.

3. Eat Better

My eating is terrible, I swear I'm addicted to chocolate or something because the amount of chocolate I eat is ridiculous! I don't eat any fruit and the only time I eat vegetables is when I'm having a Roast which isn't that often. I don't know why I don't eat more fruit and veg because I do like them so I'm going to try and incorporate them more into my diet.

4. Start Exercising

I hate exercising because when I do it I get dizzy and I have a huge fear of fainting so this is why I don't do it. However, I have learned that the reason I get dizzy is because my body isn't used to exercising and also because I push myself way too hard. I try to do every exercise at once and my body just isn't ready for that yet. Therefore, in 2017 I'm going to start exercising but to start with I'm going to go for walks and as time goes on gradually increase my distance and I also own a skipping rope so I plan to do that as well and again as time goes on gradually increase how many I do. It may seem small and simple but it's best to start small and work your way up in time.

There are probably a whole lot more of things I need to do to be healthy but I'm only going to start with these 4 goals for now because I don't want to overwhelm myself. In time I will be working on more things too.

Everyone needs a break sometimes, if you haven't realised I disappeared off of YouTube and this blog for a while. That wasn't intentional it just sort of happened but after thinking about it for a while I have decided that I want to take a break - from YouTube.
I don't want to take a break from this blog, although I won't be posting blog posts as frequent as what I was doing, so I'm staying on my blog but don't expect blog posts all the time, I got my first job about a week ago which causes me to be very busy a lot of the time.

As for YouTube, I feel like I need to take a break from it...why? Because I found myself losing motivation for it, I don't look forward to making a video and uploading it anymore, I feel like I have to do it and for that reason it just isn't as fun anymore :/
Do I plan on coming back to YouTube? Yes, hopefully one day I will return to YouTube but when that will be I don't know, I will still be on YouTube watching peoples videos but I won't be making my own for a while. I want to have the motivation to make videos and for some reason I don't have that right now therefore I am taking a break from the platform.

You can still keep up to date with me and talk to me here on my blog and over on my Twitter, I'm not disappearing completely don't worry.

I hope you understand.

Dear 14 year old Megan,

I know it is hard for you right now, you're having a rough year and you're having trouble with your emotions and every panic attack you have you think your going to die but don't worry that isn't the case at all! You will be diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression but it doesn't mean it's going to be bad forever. You will fight your hardest to get through it and you will be successful at it. Sure there are some ignorant people saying things they shouldn't to you whilst your struggling but just ignore them and carry on fighting to feel better. Life does get better, you end up with an amazing boyfriend who you will be with for quite a while, he treats you the way you should be treated, you will hit a few bumps in the road but you will be strong together. You will get work experience as a teaching assistant like you have always wanted, you will really enjoy it and you will work with some very nice people who will be doing their best to help you in any way that they can. You will also land your first job at 19 over Christmas time on the checkouts in a retail store, you haven't started it yet so I can't tell you how it is going to be but it looks like it is going to great and hopefully you will gain confidence from it. 
I know life sucks right now but it isn't all that bad, things do get better just hang in there!

From

19 Year Old You